Lately, well not really-ever since last March, I’ve been feeling immense amounts of guilt and it’s been eating away at me slightly. I know I shouldn’t be feeling like this because it’s not my fault but I do anyways.
I keep on thinking “what if”? What if I had been a better friend? What if I tried harder to not let him go? What if I pulled harder at my end?
Would I have changed anything? Would the outcome of events be any different?
I’m also having conscious horrible daydreams about friends getting into car crashes. So obviously this has affected me deeply.